Wednesday, March 19, 2008

Thank You, Update and Rambling

Thank you all for your kind words of support and encouragement. One of the hard parts of being a single parent is having no one to mull it all over with at the end of the day. Thanks for letting me say the things that I need to say in order to work it out in my own head, and just for being there. Your comments were sweet morsels of reassurance, and I appreciate that.

I talked to the girls last night, and it went fairly well. Sylvia (who resembles me in the way she is so open emotionally) cried, and Riley asked a lot of questions and wanted to understand. At one point, Sylvia was afraid she wouldn't be going to KIPP anymore, and I told her, "I promise you, you are staying in KIPP, no matter what." Riley looked right at me and said, "but you can't promise me, can you?" I answered her truthfully, "no. But I'll try really really hard." She came over and gave me a great big hug. Both of them made it clear that they did not want to move, but they also know that I've been mulling this over for days now and don't see any other way to make it work. Then Sylvia said she didn't want to think about it anymore, and could she turn on the TV. Which, all in all, I thought was just fine.

We've talked about it a couple of times since. Riley had a more emotional reaction tonight, but I dealt with it. Not long after, we were all belting along with Legally Blonde: the Musical, and Riley was blowing kisses to me.

I do feel so much better now. And I'm able to get outside my own head...always a good thing, 'cuz it can get pretty scary in there at times!

So, in an attempt to lighten the mood around here a little:

Is anyone else watching "Celebrity Apprentice?" I grant you, it's really stupid, but somehow, always makes me smile.

I've been really disappointed in "The Daily Show" lately, but I'm loving "Colbert Report" - although I'm a few days behind.

I was very annoyed by the lighting in "John Adams" (I've only seen the first part so far). It's a little too dark in the dark parts - they know we're watching it in our living room, right?

If you've seen Juno, you have to read this post by Ken Levine. Also, he gives great "American Idol" blog!

I've been re-reading Where the Red Fern Grows; I bought it for Sylvia, but had to read it once more before I let her read it. I haven't read it since I was a kid myself. It's such a great book, but it's weird to read him about cutting down these massive sycamore trees, which would most likely get him landed in jail today!

Does it sound like I watch too much TV and read too many blogs? You're right, I do. My distractions are very important to me, and I'll stay up 'til midnight for 'em!


Anonymous said...

I am so glad the talk with the girls went well!!! What a relief it must be just to know that everyone is on the same page and that they understand that you are trying your best to do what's right for them.

And I completely agree about one of the hardest parts about being a single mom is not having someone there to unwind with/vent to/mull over with/etc. But like you, that is where my blog comes in!! Thank goodness for the friends we have out in blogland who get it.

Oh -- totally agree about a very disappointing Daily Show lately. Last night I turned it off and went to sleep before the first commercial it was so bad. You'd think after the writers were on strike for so long they would have tons of good ideas up in their writer heads but it doesn't seem so.

Kori said...

Since I don't watch tv, LOL, can't comment on THAT, but I love the book Where the Red Fern Groes. Our fourth grade tacher read it out loud to us and I remember it being the first time where I realized fully the power of the written word. I sat there at my little fourth grade desk and sobbed like a baby when Rainey died. As for the rest, well, you know how I feel about it, but GREAT job handling everything; all will be well.

KG said...

Where the Red Fern Grows? Sob-festival if ever I heard one!

Glad to know your talking to them helped!

GoMommy said...

Oooh, no way! I revel in my Wednesday night line up. "loungewear" and snacks on the couch I TIVO America's Next Top Model, Top Chef, Ghost Hunters- so I can suck in all the "reality" after the kiddos go to bed.
LOVE IT. Too much!

OHmommy said...

I am so glad your talk went good. It is nice to have a blog as an outlet, isn't it? :)

Tara R. said...

Glad the talk with your girls went well. High emotions could be expected, but sounds like they are handling the pending changes. I probably should watch more TV so I can join in the office conversations, but if it's not on Speed Channel or ESPN, it's probably not on at my house.

Jen said...

I'm so glad the talks went well. And your daughters are gems.

My TV addictions are American Idol (only the performance shows) and New Amsterdam. I'm eagerly awaiting the return of Bones.

Unknown said...

I'm so happy to hear that you talked to the girls and everything is out in the open. You are such an amazing, strong and brave mom. Major props hun!