Monday, July 30, 2012


I was 18 years old when I got Bobbie. She's seen me through every milestone of my adult life; two marriages, two children, countless moves, she was there.

She was there waiting for me when I came home. She was always so happy to see me. She was feisty, but so loving to me always.

She jumped across the room the first time she felt Sylvia kick in my stomach, but it was her favorite place to be when I was pregnant. She was so good to the girls. She loved them as much as she loved me.

She was a playful kitten, and a faithful friend. After 21 years, I kissed and held her for the last time. I told her I loved her as she found peace after a rough few days.

I could barely walk in the door to come home for the first time, knowing she wouldn't be there to greet me. I don't know when I'm going to get used to that.

She's been getting me ready for it. She stopped sleeping with me a couple of months ago. Her arthritis made it hard for her to jump on the bed. But I knew she was there, not far. She woke me up this morning with a cry. I can't imagine not waking up to the sound of her voice anymore.

As I held her for the last time, I thanked her again for being there for me. For everything, she was there. I hate that she won't be here anymore. I know she'll live on in my heart, and the girls' hearts forever. And I know I was lucky to have her as long as I did. And I was grateful to be there for her last moments.

But I am grieving right now. And I don't think I'll ever stop missing her.

Bobbie, you were the best cat ever, and I'll love you forever.


Kimie said...

April, I'm so sorry. When we lose our furbabies, it's always so devastating and it makes you wonder why they can't live as long as we do. I hope you find some comfort that she has a loving home with you and that she was happy.

Cat said...

I'm so sorry for your loss. Big virtual hugs to you.

Missy June said...

April, I've got tears because I know the love for an animal is so real. What a privilege to be loved so completely and I'm grateful for the history and memories you share. Take care of you as you grieve. Sigh - I'm so sorry.


BigLittleWolf said...

This is so terribly hard. I'm sorry, April.

A friend went through this recently with her dog, and when our dog passed, it was dreadful. The grief is all wrapped up in memories and our children and our own lives as well as the pure joy of these beloved animals.

How fortunate you were to have Bobbie for so long.

Florinda said...

I'm still missing my dog Gypsy, 2.5 years later. You and Bobbie had so many great years together that she'll be in your heart for many more. I'm so sorry for your loss, April.

Rose ASL said...

I'm so sorry for your loss. :(

Jessica Gottlieb said...

I'm so sorry for you and the empty house.