Wednesday, October 3, 2007

Online Diary Entry: There's Something About Wednesdays

I always feel my most blah on Wednesdays. I guess that's fairly typical. But it still comes as a surprise to me.
The day usually starts out like any other, but as the hours go by, I feel less and less connected with anyone in the world. I don't know why, but all the differences between me and everyone else seem more pronounced and generally feel like obstacles.
I also see my own faults to a greater degree on this day. I question myself more. I wonder what the heck I'm doing with my life, or why don't I do some things better?
When people talk to me, it feels like they're on a different wavelength than I am.
I know it'll pass, but I also know it'll get worse and worse until I'm with my girls again.
Somehow, this is also the day I appreciate them the most as we do our nightly routine. (Okay, maybe not always, but usually.) They get me out of my head and focused on them.
I need something to get me out of my own head! But it won't happen until 6 o'clock tonight.
Until then, I'll just be biding time, I guess. Such a waste, though, with only so many hours in the day. But what's a girl to do?

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